Wow one year almost to the day since my last post!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's insane and I guess shows a pattern of what Thanksgiving does to me. Especially Thanksgiving not spent with family :( I'm really struggling lately with so much in my personal life. I am unhappy and I think a lot of that has to do with my lack of local friends and distance from my friends and family. My best friend in the entire world is going to have a baby any day now and I can't be there! I always thought I would be there for her on that day but I'm not and I can't and I hate myself for that! I miss my family it's been almost 2 years since I've seen my Dad and brother and a few months since I've seen my mom.